This August, in Issue 5 of your The Kablogs Journal, we bring to you The PEBA Primer for the commencement of the Philippine OFW/Expat Blog Awards 2010. This Season 3 theme is “Strengthening the OFW Families: Stronger Homes for a Stronger Nation”.

We hope that after reading the articles in this issue, especially the PEBA Primer that we have painstakingly prepared for you, you will be encouraged to join PEBA 2010. Do. Because a lot of people -- us, your kablogers, included -- are waiting to hear your voices. Who knows? You could be the winners that PEBA 2010 are looking for.

About the Cover

We used the new PEBA logo as our cover for this August issue. The two characters in our cover -- what look like an 'f' shape and an upside heart -- read 'pa' and 'ba' in Baybayin. PEBA, in other words. (Baybayin is an old Filipino script used by our ancestors even before the Spaniards came. It became popular in the 1600s but slowly vanished after 1700s. Jose Rizal in his work 'Sa Aking Mga Kababata' wrote: "Ang salita nati'y huwad din sa iba, na may alfabeto at sariling letra, na kaya nawala'y dinatnan ng sigwa, ang lunday sa lawa noong dakong una").

Like baybayin, our family -- an OFW family most especially -- faces a lot of tempests (sigwa), and PEBA's 2010 theme is a reminder how we should (and must) keep it strong and sturdy and united.

Baybayin translation is courtesy of Eagles Corner.
Information on baybayin was taken from Baybayin, The Ancient Script of the Philippines.
Line from Jose Rizal's poem were sourced from Kapitbisig.

Speaking of family, The Kablogs Journal welcomes Mr. Drake of Saudi Arabia as the newest member of our editorial team. Also, we'd like to thank Mr. Jose Santiago Tan of Thailand for giving us the domain, thekablogsjournal.com.

Thank you very much, mga sir!

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The PEBA Walkthrough

As you know, the editorial tandem of Nebz of Isla de Nebz and Sundrenched of The Pink Tarha, is a product of the PEBA 2009. To say that we have been changed by our PEBA experience is an understatement. The PEBA 2009 has paved the way for us to come up with The Kablogs Journal and we are grateful for this opportunity to be of service to our fellow OFWs and expats. Because we so want to coerce urge you to join the Pinoy OFWs/Expats Blog Awards 2010, here's a PEBA walkthrough and some tips and tricks to guide you.

Before you join, see if you're eligible to join:

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To summarize that: You are an OVERSEAS FILIPINO BLOGGER.

If you're all cleared to join, here's a diagram of the process:

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As you can see in our "map" (sorry, a Photoshop newbie here!), it's pretty simple to join. There are just some logos and banners that needs to be placed in strategic areas within your blog and entry to distinguish you as nominees but they're easy to put. Just copy the codes from here.

After you are nominated, it's pretty much a waiting game from that point onwards. We suggest you gather your friends and plead ask them to read your entry and vote for you.

Always remember that during the first phase of PEBA, your blog entry on the theme is the most important of all. This is your key to becoming a finalist come November 2010. So give yourself time to come up with something that is truly a heartfelt and passionate.

Here's the information on everything you need to know about PEBA, the full version: http://www.pinoyexpatsblogawards.com/

5 Reasons to Join PEBA 2010

1. The PEBA 2010 is fun. Of course it's a serious contest but the people behind PEBA is making sure that this contest is fun for all of you. PEBA 2010 is an improved version of the past two seasons. This contest is uncomplicated. The guidelines, rules, and criteria are simple enough. Here's a walkthrough for you, TKJ style. The officers are approachable and friendly and you will not have a hard time communicating with them. (But please don't bombard them with questions that can be answered by the PEBA site.) It is an enjoyable journey from the time it opened up to the closing remarks at the PEBA night on December 2010. Oh, and even beyond that.

2. PEBA 2010 is a way to discover yourself more. It is the objective of this year's theme to talk about families and aren't we all a member of a family? Your entry to the PEBA will help you delve into your past, present, and future to look for a unique angle on family that you'll eventually write about, publish, and share to the whole world. With this process, you will discover more about yourself: how you look, deal, and act on issues that are important to you. Your entry is a part of who you are.

3. PEBA 2010 is an avenue for exposure. Let's face it, you blog because you want to share a piece of yourselves to others. Be it your sentiments, thoughts, ramblings, and emotions. We want others to read us. And in joining PEBA, you'll get just that: more readers. PEBA opens up an opportunity to get to know your readers- other people who might agree or disagree with what you write, but whose opinions you need to improve your writing style, blogging habits, and blog aesthetics.

4. PEBA 2010 is a channel for your talents. You want to write? To draw? To direct a video? To showcase your photography skills? PEBA 2010 welcomes all kinds of entries from articles to artworks to videos to photos. PEBA 2009 winner Nebz Bandiez of Isla de Nebz showed his drawings and got the attention of the judges for uniqueness and creativity. PEBA 2010 gives you the freedom to be creative and resourceful in your entry. But don't forget, whatever you create, it should be in accordance to this year's theme: Strengthening the OFW Families: Stronger Homes for a Stronger Nation. Good thing, the theme, though focused on family, is versatile enough and has a lot of angles to it.

5. PEBA 2010 is a corridor to the global landscape. PEBA 2010 has opened its doors for bloggers who are not OFWs or expats but support the cause of the OFWs. Through PEBA and the entries joining, non-OFWs and the people left behind in the Philippines are given a glimpse of the OFW lives in a more personal approach. The news seen and heard in the media (television, news websites, radio, etc.) displays the myriad lives of Filipinos living abroad but there's nothing like reading and hearing them from the primary source. Your personal accounts of your experiences as OFWs and expats are more genuine, more intimate, more inspiring, and more enlightening. You are the global Pinoy and PEBA lets you prove it.

The Global Blogging Revolution That Is PEBA

If all Overseas Filipino Workers' stories are weaved, we could probably cover the world with a blanket made out of it. Or maybe publish books of many volumes. Or dominate the Internet through blogs that speak of them.

This year, the Pinoy Expats/OFWs Blog Awards is running on its third year. Its birth in 2008 has been a spark that ignited a different kind of fire in the blogging world. Finally, OFWs and expats have another avenue to tell their wonderful stories. Finally, a stage has been set for them to show what they have as OFWs... changing, not only how the Philippines look at them, but also how the world looks at Filipinos. The PEBA rounds up the global Pinoys and stirs them to action. This is an ongoing revolution and we here in The Kablogs Journal, are more than happy to be a part of it. In this issue, we present to you the founding chairman of the PEBA, Mr. Kenji Solis, as he talks about the humble beginning, arduous journey, and the great future of this prestigious award.

1. What is the Pinoy Expats Blog Awards about?

The Pinoy Expats/OFW Blog Awards or PEBA is a yearly project that aims to recognize and honor the exemplary work of Filipino bloggers overseas. PEBA wishes to present these Filipinos' blog work to more people and bring their creative talents to light. This award-giving body highlights inspiring blogs so that others may learn from them. We are running on our third season now.

2. How did it come about? Whose idea was it and who were the initial persons behind the PEBA?

Our blog , Thoughtskoto, was nominated in the Bloggers Choice Awards. We are also aware of the Philippine Blog Awards. My wife and I then started looking for OFWs in the roster of best blogs but we didn't see many. Aware that there are many bloggers around the globe that are linked to our blog, we decided to make an award for these wonderful and onspiring bloggers. We started with a handful of volunteers. I tapped the support of some bloggers to be my partners in our first run. Among them are Pete Rahon, an OFW based in South Korea, Lionel Gonzaga, an OFW in Dubai, and NJ Abad in Jeddah. The online nomination, judging, and awarding were all done successfully.


3. Was PEBA patterned after other award-giving bodies?

I guess not. We make our own criteria and mechanics, as well as guidelines. The matrix we defined in 2008 was modified and simplified in 2009 so there's an easier and faster deliberation of winners. We are being mentored by Ms. Noemi L. Dado, the first president of the Philippine Blog Awards (PBA), Ms. Janette Toral, the founding chair of the Top 10 Influential Bloggers Awards, and Ms. Aileen Apolo, the Google representative in Asia.

4. What makes PEBA different?

I'd like to answer that with a quote from the 2010 opening entry of PEBA president, NJ Abad: "PEBA will not just be an organization that will give annual awards for exemplary blogs but it will proactively act on issues that will make difference in people's lives, especially the young children, and the OFW's and their families." We are a non-profit organization. So all the money that will be given by the sponsors are being spent cautiously in the awarding expenses, scholarships for outstanding yet poor students, and to KABLOGS, the social arm of PEBA in helping distress OFW's around the globe.

5. What is the goal of PEBA?

First, we present the exemplary OFW bloggers to showcase their talents. We are collectively gathering the best posts from winners, as we are planning to compile it in a book, have it distributed in every Philippine embassies in the world and every libraries in the Philippines. We want people to read our stories, the real life abroad, and our insights and expectations from families and the government. Second, we are helping young children achieve their dreams through education through sponsors. We at PEBA believes that education unlocks the door of opportunity, so to alleviate poverty, we want to help a good and deserving student get a good education. And lastly, PEBA will proactively engage in issues that concerns OFWs and their families.

6. What is the importance of PEBA to OFWs and their families?

As stated in the the PEBA president's entry, and last (but not the least) in our goal, PEBA wants to make a stand on issues that directly concerns OFWs and their families. Last 2008, we established the blog awards. By 2009, we have already emphasized the OFW's role in our country and the goodness we are doing around the world. This 2010, we are making a stand on one of the greatest issues that an OFW is facing - disintegration of the family. It's a sad reality. I don't know how we can stop it but we are doing something to somehow alleviate it.

7. What is the greatest hurdle you had to overcome to stage the PEBA?

Getting volunteers, getting great and good people who will work and spend their precious time for doing something without receiving anything. I am just grateful there are great people that grace PEBA. The About Page of PEBA is full of people I have great respect and admiration, and I have a profound gratitude to each of them. There are also people not mentioned there that support PEBA all the way. To them, my heartfelt gratitude as well.

8.What are the unforgettable moments of PEBA 1? PEBA 2?

In PEBA 1, a blogger based in London won't accept defeat. He won the most popular blog award but he didn't land in the Top 10. 10% of the popular vote really won't lead you to the top, but he won't accept it. I tried to explain, but he refuses to listen. I let it go. In PEBA 2, meeting the officers of PEBA for the first time. I haven't meet, NJ, Pete, Noemi, and others in real life, but during the awarding, we were all there! We communicate and have conferences and chats virtually, but during the awarding, it's the first time we were together in a real setting. That's really something for me.

9. What are your hopes and dreams for the PEBA?

I hope more and more OFWs will blog. I am seeing the KABLOGS roster growing everyday from the short lists of 75 when I first started it. It's more than 200 now. I hope more OFWs will make use of the wonder of the internet. It alleviates boredom, it leads you to think, to create something unique and special. And PEBA came in to recognize that. We honor each and every OFW blogger. And I dream one day, that when we are old and slow, the rising generation before us will read our stories and musings, our sadness and joys, our successes and failures. PEBA will make sure that we will be a witness to them. As they read our stories, they will be strengthened, and they will learn, so they'll know better as they live their life.

10. How do you see the PEBA 5 years from now?

I'm excited to see PEBA in the future. I hope to see it as an established award organization, like the Oscars, lol! We are finding and adding the best people bloggers every year. This year, we added three more people to the PEBA officers. They have their own strengths and they add fresh ideas to what we have currently. We are doing okay but we keep adding more so we produce better results.

11. How has the PEBA changed you as a person (as its founder)?

I don't know. I am still the same me, small, simple, affable and kind. Hahaha. That's my wife's line! I am grateful for the many great people I've known and befriended along the way. They make me a much better person because of who they are. They maybe OFWs, bloggers, businessmen, politicians, and advocacy people, I am truly grateful for helping PEBA where it is now.

12. If PEBA stands for another acronym, what will it stand for?

This is a suggestion from the maker of the original PEBA logo, Mr. Ion Gonzaga, a website designer based in Dubai. PEBA as in Pinoys Exemplify the Best Attitudes!

Given the rising number of OFW bloggers in the world, the PEBA is aiming high this year. PEBA 2010 will make sure it becomes successful in honoring and paying tribute the many fathers, mothers, and children who took, and are taking, leaps of faith to provide for their families. And as long as an OFW blogs, PEBA is here to stay.

We're sure this is one revolt you'd gladly join. See you all in the nominees list! Good luck!

PEBA 2009 Voices

The winners of PEBA 2009, "Filipinos Abroad - Hope of the Nation, Gift to the World," recall their triumph and offer their messages of thanks and support to the PEBA blogging nation.

When I wrote my article for PEBA 2009, winning was the last thing on my mind. All I really wanted was to share my thoughts on the theme. More than the award, the best that I got out of PEBA 2009 is being able to interact and work with some of the finest OFW bloggers. You can, too! Join PEBA 2010! Oh, yes. I have three winning tips for you: Write from your heart. Make them cry. And finally, kiss it if you can (I mean, keep it short and succulent, or suave and saucy, or simple and sweet). Good luck! ~ Nebz of Isla de Nebz, 1st placer

There was a primary reason why we first blogged - to break the confines of our boring existence in the desert of Saudi Arabia. To merely say that wala kaming magawa was very apt. But that was before PEBA 2009. The Pinoy OFWs/Expats Blog Awards widened our reach to other people and now, the Pink Tarha has been given a direction. It's not just a diary of kikay whims anymore but a lifestyle guide. Something that helps and inspires others. For this, we are thankful for the PEBA community. To all blogging Filipinos abroad, share your passion by joining the PEBA 2010. It's one experience that will change you. To PEBA 2010, cheers! - The Pink Tarha ladies, 2nd placer

Blogging was all about sharing my thoughts and feelings at first but through PEBA, it became more than mere sharing of thoughts and feelings and having fun. Blogging has become a part of my personal and professional life and learning how people have been encouraged and inspired by my stories, I became more inspired to write and share my experiences until I had my own share of letting people know my advocacies. PEBA has actually helped open my eyes to the realities of blogging and the impact that blogs could bring. It has been a great experience. When my blog was called for the award as top 3 blog, I was so relieved and amazed! From that, I learned that it's not really all about doing something for a competition but it's all about doing things with passion and dedication. When I started my blog, I did not think of joining any competition. All I wanted to do was to share my passion and yes, I got more than I wanted. Being one of the nominees for PEBA 2010 is already an achievement in the sense that you already have contributed to an endeavor for Overseas Filipino Workers and their families. Supporting an advocacy which you believe in is the real achievement. Success in this case is not all about winning but it's all about becoming a part of one great endeavor. ~ Phil Saraspe of Wits and Spirits, 3rd placer

I was a bit apprehensive when Mr. Kenji Solis, founder of PEBA, asked me to join the PEBA because I didn't know anything about blog contests and I saw that the nominees of PEBA 2009 were the best OFW bloggers. When I won, I was unexpectedly happy. Grabeh, I was glad my blog was appreciated. To all PEBA 2010 aspirants and nominees, give your stories a bit of twist; though seemingly hallowed from the old crypt of OFW tales. There should be some redeeming values in the end of the story and keep a balance of sad-happy, agony-ecstacy, and sacrifice-sucess. This will be a sure win in the PEBA. ~ Amalia Menta of Francesca in France, 4th placer

I really appreciate all the people behind the efforts in making PEBA successful each year. I've met people who, do not only eloquently share their life experiences with others, but find ways to make a difference across the globe and being a part of the organization is really an honor. When I became one of the top ten winners in the PEBA 2009, I was happy, surprised... mixed emotions. It was unexpected because I admit that the competition was really tight and all entries were deserving of the title or to be in the top 10. And also because I didn't put much effort in promoting my entry and I only have a few readers (who are also readers of other bloggers who joined the contest), I never expect much. To all the nominees of this year's PEBA, I wish you all the best. It doesn't matter whether you win the title or not, what matters is that you're writing from the heart and you give your best to contribute to achieve your goal to be heard not only by one or two people, but Filipinos around the world. And to PEBA, cheers to another year of selfless commitment to promote, uplift and unite OFW bloggers across the globe! ~ Enjoy of A Piece of Keyk, 5th placer

PEBA 2009 was an overwhelming experience, it's the joy of writing beyond blogging, sharing a part of my life through blog inspiring fellow OFWs, an OFW community and the world. To be part of the Top 10 Bloggers of PEBA is a magnanimous feeling as I share my award with my family, friends and fellow OFWs who has become part of my life and of my blog. To all PEBA 2010 aspirants and nominees, PEBA's 2010 event is more than just a contest and it's not just about winning - PEBA's cause is larger than life, an invitation for Pinoy bloggers to be part of the hub of a social media reaching out to the masses, as your life story could touch lives and bring change to an OFW family, to a "Diasporic Pinoy community" and perhaps to the world. - The Pope of Palipasan, 6th placer

Being part of PEBA 2009 was an honor to a new blogger like me, showcasing a true story thru writing and inspiring others. To all PEBA 2010 finalist, continue to believe and inspire others. KUDOS PEBA 2010! ~ Chris of Topexpress, 7th placer

To be part of PEBA 2009 is really a rewarding experience and what makes it extraordinary for me is to be a part of the top 10 winners. The award PEBA gave me somehow boosted Bonistation in the blogosphere. And I owe this to everyone who appreciated my blog particularly my winning entry, “SALUDO AKO SAYO”. Of course this honors my DAD, a tribute for his name, for my name. And for PEBA 2010 nominees, consider that you are all winners. Rock the world with your stories, stories that will capture the heart of everyone in the Blogosphere and in the whole world as well. Good luck to all nominees! More power to PEBA! ~ Bon Talampas of Boni Station, 8th placer

To the OFW Supporters

PEBA 2010 opens its doors for all supporters of Overseas Filipino Workers and expats who are willing to share a piece of their blog (and self) to the Kablogs community. The Kablogs website, like PEBA, is not only for the overseas Filipino blogs, it's also for the non-OFW blogs.

This year, even if you're at home in the Philippines, you can be a part of PEBA. Much more, you can receive an award by joining!

Check first if you are eligible to join:

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You are? Then head to http://www.pinoyexpatsblogawards.com/ for more details. From where we are in the globe and from the bottom of our hearts, we thank you for supporting us.

The Greater PEBA

If the five reasons to join PEBA we gave you are not enough, just consider this: PEBA helps poor but deserving children go to school and you can too.

The people behind PEBA are working with Believe International, a 100% volunteer organization that provide resources so Filipino youth can attend school, encourage academic excellence, teach positive values and social behavior, and create opportunities for personal growth. In essence, Believe International and PEBA share the OFWs' dreams and goals - to send children to school and give them a better future.

We all know how important education is and we also know that many Filipino children cannot get good education, even if they want to, because their parents lack the resources to fund their schooling. Now, here is a group manned by volunteers, people who have the passion to help others without expecting anything in return. This is a wholehearted, unselfish action and commitment. And PEBA wants you to be a part of it.

For now, PEBA is sponsoring two children, Ernesto of Camarines Norte and Caren of Aklan. With your help, more children can go to school. You can donate through PEBA and ask your family and friends to do the same. All proceeds will go to Believe International. For more details, please contact Mr. Kenji Solis at kenjebz@gmail.com.

Ernesto's drawing

Once, you believed you can go to school, land a job, and lead a good life. Now, you are successful in your endeavor because of the education you worked hard for. Now, you have the power to help others go to school and make them believe that life has so much more to offer.

There's Something About Amy

There are bloggers who make us think with their witty, smart comments on political issues. There are bloggers who make us cry with their personal sentiments about life. There are bloggers who make us angry with their fearless attacks on the government or whatever it is that is bothering them. And then, there are bloggers who make us smile, or better yet, laugh with their funny anecdotes and "keeping it real" style of writing. Such is the case with Ms. Amy Menta, who is bringing us, for five years and counting, entries that are full of humor and fun (no dull moments!).

Bonjour, Madame Amalia!

Ms. Amalia Menta, or Amy to some friends, is your typical Overseas Filipino Worker. She went abroad in 1998 and she has not looked back since. Until now, she’s still living in France, her second home, and is now married to a Frenchman. She depicts her life as a non-stop soap opera. She seems like the rest of us, but upon reading her blog, you’ll realize that there’s something about Amy but je ne sais quoi. Let me help you with that “indescribable something” that distinguishes her and her blog from others.

Amy with her French husband, Michel.

Francesca in France is a blog that started with her online persona at the defunct Asawa forum. While creating her blog, Amy was watching Meryll Streep's Francesca in Bridges of Madison County. She felt the same sentiments of the character. From then on, Francesca in France went online and a cornucopia of tales and thoughts followed.

Probably, what sets her and her blog apart from the rest is the fancy country where she's currently living in. After all, isn't France the most romantic and fashionable country in the world? The country most of us dream of going to? This Bisaya-Ilonggo Pinay is living in Nice, France and her being a full-time personal assistant/housekeeper to a billionaire in Monaco, Monte Carlo, has its advantages... like having something to talk about in her blog.

Her blog, Francesca in France, has been online since January 2005. Her blog discusses her life filled with disasters (and sometimes success) and funny stories that are quite annoying sometimes but purely wholesome. There are no dirty topics on her blog. Her blog focuses on her work and how she deals with the French lifestyle. Her Butler stories, entries on her former co-worker, was such a hit that it catapulted Francesca in France into winning the best blog in Europe award at the 2008 and 2009 Pinoy OFWs/Expats Blog Awards. From an active forum-er to an award-winning blogger... bongga s'ya 'day!

Out on a road trip.

Blogging has taught Ms. Amalia patience. She said that she didn't realize that the world of blogging is that special and that it could change her life. She is now more "madaldal" and more creative. She has made friends all over the world. Also, she has shown France to a lot of us, who can only dream of visiting the fabled country some day. "France is a bit special. They do unimaginable things here. It is a free country; the church is separate from the state. The language is hard taking me five years to have the courage to speak it." Apparently, the French people have their quirks too. "They eat frogs and snails here too. They eat rotten cheese (with bacteria) and raw oysters." She suggests the following must-visit places in Paris: the Louvre Museum and Palais de Versailles, and in Nice: the perfumeries and wine factories. And it's also a must to ride the bullet trains.

Beautiful mother and daughter tandem.

Though she sees herself living in France for a long time, she still holds a special place for the Philippines in her heart. "I like to live in the Philippines if it is already secured and peaceful to live in. I think if the system of government in the Philippines is inviting, why not?" Having children who do not fail her expectations and remains obedient to her ("walang suwail") is what she considers as her greatest success so far. Her children are her joie de vivre. About Michel, her French husband, he is just an accessory into the picture, so he says.

Living larger than life.

To her fellow expat bloggers, she leaves this message: "Life abroad is not home sweet home like when we were in the Philippines. You must widen your horizon and explore. Get more experiences when it comes to the places you go to and people you meet. Blogging is therapeutic and you must not stop."

Indeed, bloggers must continue blogging and if you want a respite from the toxic, hectic schedule that is giving you a writer's block, heading to Francesca in France will make you laugh out loud and remind you that despite life's many struggles, it is still a great blessing to be in this journey. C'est la vie!

Fancy reading who else we've featured in our previous issues? Read them here.

Pangako sa kasal

tinatanggap kitang maging kaisang dibdib
na maging kabiyak ng aking puso,
sa habang buhay,
sa hirap at ginhawa,
sa sakit man o kalusugan,
at mamahalin kita
sa habangbuhay,
gaya ng sagradong utos ng Panginoon.

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Family three: Soap-wise

(Caveat: To suggest that all fathers who go abroad and leave their family behind end up in all-gloom situation is a fiction. This is the fact: lives of most Filipino families -- the material aspect of it at least -- became better because someone in their family decides to work abroad. The following, therefore, is a work of fiction inspired by...well, let's face it, some harsh truths.)

December 1, 2004

Mom.
Dad.
Son, 5.

Jobless.
Fed up.
Wanting.

So she decides to work again; he decides to go abroad. And Junior is too old to fend for himself, so they let Sony take care of Junior's needs.

July 1, 2005

Mom.
Dad.
Son, 5.

Makati.
Saudi.
PS5.

Peso.
Riyals.
Excitement.

Ten hours
(give and take the traffic).
One year.
Forever.

Happily bored.
Unhappily bored.
Couldn't care less.

Their lives -- if you can call it as such -- went like that for five years.

December 31, 2010

Mom.
Dad.
Son, 10.

House.
NAIA.
Room.

Another baby.
Dollars.
Blanked out.

Afraid.
Excited.
Catatonic.

Crying.
Surprised.
Unfeeling.

Angry.
Sorry.
Nothing.

January 2, 2011

Mom.
Dad.
Son.

Saudi.
Makati.
NCMH.

January 2, 2012

Mom.
Dad.
Son.

New family.
New family.
New 'family'.

All three contented.

► Some of our articles are not this sad. Read them here.

Pula

Akda ni Noel Ablon



Pula ang kulay ng ating dugo. Ito rin ang siyang sumasagisag ng pag-ibig, katapangan, kabayanihan ng mga taong dumanak ang dugo para sa kalayaan ng Pilipinas sa kamay ng kanyang mananakop. Pagpapala naman ang dulot ng kulay na ito para sa mga Intsik. Pero ano naman kaya sinisimbolo nito para sa atin?

Gaya ng iba, para sa akin, ang pula ay sumisimbolo ng dugo ngunit itong dugong ito ay siyang dugong dumanak sa krus ng kalbaryo na kung saan si Hesus ay napako at namatay para sa aking mga sala. Sabihin n'yo nang relihiyoso itong aking kontribusyon. Isa lamang ang masasabi ko: naging bahagi si Kristo ng aking buhay; responsibilidad kong ibahagi ang balitang ito sa iba.

Samakatuwid, ang mga sumusunod na mababasa ay pawang espiritwal na inspirasyon para sa mga taong uhaw sa Kanyang pangaral. Kahit sandali sana ay mabigyan natin ito ng panahon.

Walang makapapantay pa sa pag-ibig na kaloob ni Hesus sa atin. Sapagka’t Siya ang naunang umibig sa atin. Isang pag-ibig na hindi naghihintay ng kapalit kundi ang atin lamang tanggapin ang kaloob Niyang gantimpala. Isang gantimpalang walang bayad. Isang gantimpalang patuloy na inilalaan para sa atin.

Katapangang maituturing ang pagharap ni Hesus sa Kanyang mga mamumusong sa kabila ng panganib na nakaambang sa Kanyang buhay. Namuhay Siya bilang isang tao upang makaranas ng uhaw, gutom, sakit at hapdi. Bakit? Upang tayo ay abutin sapagkat hindi natin kayang abutin ang Kanyang kaluwalhatian, at upang tayo ay walang maipagmalaki sa Kanya.

Kabayanihan sapagkat ang sinumang tumanggap sa Kanya ay binigyan ng karapatang maging anak o bahagi ng Kanyang pamilya – ng Kanyang lipi. Pinagtagumpayan ang kamatayan sa pamamagitan ng pagkabuhay na muli upang tayo ay tubusin sa ating mga pagkakasala.

Pagpapala naman ang kaloob ni Hesus sa aking buhay. Ako ay nakaranas ng mga paghihirap ngunit ito ay may kaakibat namang kasagutan. Alam ng Diyos ang ating hangganan o limitasyon. Alam Niya ang kakayahan nating pagtagumpayan ang bawat pagsubok na ating kinakaharap. Ang aking lakas na nagmula rin sa Kanya ang tanging sagot sa mga pagsubok na aking nakaharap sa buhay.

Ito ang simbolo ng pulang kulay sa akin: ang pag-asang hatid ni Kristo Hesus. Pag-asang nakapaloob ang pag-ibig, katapangan, kabayanihan at pagpapala.

► Tunghayan ang marami pang akda ni Noel, isang OFW sa Jeddah, Saudi Arabia, sa Baul ni Noel. Maari ring matunghayan ang iba pang akda ni Noel sa journal na ito.

Si Malakas at si Nok at si Maganda

Inspirasyong nagmula sa guhit ni Nestor Redondo na matatagpuan dito.



Mula sa isang matikas na kawayan, lumabas ang isang lalaking nagngangalang Malakas. Makisig ang kanyang katawan at maamo ang kanyang mukha. Sa kauna-unahan niyang pagyapak sa lupa, kaagad siyang naaliw sa mga magagandang pangitain. Ngunit ang isang araw na pag-ngiti at paghanga sa mga magagandang tanawin ay nabahiran ng lumbay.

Wari'y may kulang...

Inusal niya ang isang panalangin na sana'y maibsan ang kanyang lungkot. At siyang pagdating ni Nok, isang kalahating-manok, kalahating-ibon.

'Bakit ka nalulumbay?' tanong ni Nok.

'Pakiramdam ko'y may kulang, ngunit hindi ko alam kung ano'.

'Tutulungan kitang mag-isip', wika ni Nok sabay dapo sa kabilang kawayan.

Habang nag-iisip ay panay naman ang tuka nito sa kawayan. Ilang oras pa'y naramdaman ni Nok ang unti-unting pagbuka ng kawayan. Kahit si Malakas ay nagulat din.

Maya-maya pa'y isang pagkaganda-gandang dilag ang sa kanila'y tumambad -- nagmula sa ikalawang puno ng kawayan.

'Ano'ng ngalan mo?', tanong ni Malakas.

'Maganda', pangiting sagot ng babae.

Sa isip ni Nok: 'Siya na marahil ang katugunan sa kalungkutan ni Malakas. Natuwa s'ya at siya'y tumilaok.'

Nagtinginan si Malakas at si Maganda. Kinuha ni Malakas si Nok at sabay sabi kay Maganda ng: Nais mo ba ng tinola?

Jowk.

Nabuhay ng maayos ang mag-asawa. Si Nok nama'y nakakita rin ng kanyang kalahi at sa wakas ay napagtanto niyang siya'y isang ibon kung kaya't tinigilan na niya ang katitilaok, at siya ay lumipad nang lumipad.

Nagbunga ng supling sina Malakas at Maganda -- si Makisig. Lumaking mabait at masunurin si Makisig.

Epilogo:

Ngunit talagang may bagay na laging hinahanap. Wika ni Maganda kay Malakas isang araw: 'Bakit wala tayong LCD, PSP at kotse?'.

Naulinigan ni Nok ang usapan, at saka niya sinabing: 'Halikayo. Ihahatid ko kayo sa lugar kung saan maraming LCD, PSP at kotse.'

Natuwa ang tatlo sa kaginhawaang ipinangako ni Nok. At sila'y nangimbang-bayan.

Nagtrabaho bilang tagamaneho si Malakas. Si Maganda nama'y ginawang receptionist sa isang tanggapan. Si Makisig ay nag-aral sa Philippine School sa kanilang bagong lugar.

Natupad nga nila ang kanilang pangarap. Pagkalipas ng maraming taon, nagkaroon ng bahay sila Malakas at Maganda. May kotse at maliit na negosyo. Si Makisig nama'y nagpatuloy ng kolehiyo sa abroad (mas 'angat' daw kasi kapag sa abroad nagtapos) at kumuha ng medicine (sa pagnanasang sa abroad na rin makapagtrabaho at makapanirahan).

Alternatibong epilogo:

Hindi naging maiinggitin si Makisig sa mga kalarong may PSP at Nintendo. Sapat na sa kanya ang tumbang preso, holen, taguan-pong at luksong-lubid. Hindi rin s'ya ni minsan nakatikim ng Cadbury at Kisses, ngunit lagi naman siyang nabubusog ng caimito at mangga na galing sa kanilang pananim.

Wika ni Malakas: 'Magsipag ka lamang, anak. At huwag ka lamang mapanghihinaan ng loob sa kasamaang dala ng tao. May yaman ang lugar natin. Magkaroon ka lamang ng tiyaga at pagmamahal dito.'

Natupad nga nila ang kanilang pangarap. Pagkalipas ng maraming taon, nagkaroon ng bahay sila Malakas at Maganda. May kotse at maliit na negosyo. Si Makisig nama'y nagpatuloy ng kolehiyo sa Pilipinas, at kumuha ng kursong agrikultura (sa pagnanasang paunlarin ang maliit nilang bukirin).

► Read Nebz's previous articles here.

Symbolism

Philippine National Dish: LECHON... famous for its red and crispy skin.

Hindi naman ako nakaharap sa pulang ilaw-trapiko noong nakaraang buwan (Hulyo) subalit hindi ako nakapagsulat para rito sa The Pacific Breeze. Sa mga sumusubaybay, at naghihintay ng muling pagbabalik ng kolum na ‘to, maraming salamat po. Sisikapin ng inyong lingkod na ngayo’y makabalik sa agos ng KaBlogs’ Journal kahit na tayo’y pansamantalang nawala noong nakaraang buwan kung kailan napapatungkol sa tubig, ulan at bagyo ang naging pangunahing usapin. Sa totoo lang, nananatiling isang palaisipan para sa akin kung sinu-sino at kung saan naroon ang mga mambabasa ng magasin nating ito, kaya hindi ko alam kung paano gawin ang isang lathalaing papasa sa panlasa ng mga mambabasa.

Sa mga panahong ito, hindi lamang ako ang nagbabalik-blogosperyo. Si Ka Uro, na halos limang buwang animo’y nakaharap sa ‘pulang ilaw-trapiko’ ay muli ring nagbalik sa kanyang pahina noong Hunyo hatid ang magandang balita para sa mga kababayang may balak, o handa na ang mga dokumento patungong New Zealand. Silang mga kasapi ng AKLnzPinoys ay gumawa ng isang handbook (From Carabao to Sheep) na punung-puno ng mga impormasyong kailangan ng isang Pilipinong nagpaplanong manirahan sa New Zealand.

Dalawang mga blogs ding gawa ng isang Pilipino sa New Zealand ang naidagdag sa listahan ng KaBlogs. Ito ay ang Filipino Life in New Zealand, at ang Adobongblog na parehong gawa ni G. Nick Ballesteros.

Sa kalagitnaan ng panahon ng taglamig dito sa katimugang bahagi ng mundo, iminumungkahi ni Nick na panoorin ang pelikulang Grave of the Fireflies—isang animated film patungkol sa pagdurusa ng mga tao noong panahon ng Pangalawang Digmaang Pandaigdig. Ngunit kamakailan lamang, bigla namang nagbago ang panahon sa Wellington, panandaliang tumaas ang temperatura kasabay ng pagpapakita ni Haring Araw kaya lumabas at nagsaya ang pamilya Ballesteros.

Kung ang kulay na pula ay sumasagisag ng digmaan, paghihirap at pagtitiis, pati na rin ng mataas o mainit na temperatura, ang pagkaing kulay pula ay sadya namang katakam-takam! Tulad nitong paksiw na litsong manok na naging bida kamakailan lang sa Adobongblog. Hindi rin pahuhuli ang pagkaing nangangalaga sa ating kalusugan, lalung-lalo na sa ating puso... ngunit hindi ko alam kung pasok sa listahan itong Hearty Beef Soup na gawa ni Nick.

Kung sa NZ may pagkaing patungkol puso, doon naman sa pulo ng Palau ay may lathalaing patungkol sa puso. Anim na buwan pa bago ang inaabangang Araw ng mga Puso ngunit naging masarap na kwentuhan at dugtungan patungkol sa puso (at kahalayan) sa The Dungeon ni Lord CM.

Maaring kayo’y nagtaka kung bakit Wikang Filipino ang gamit ko ngayon dito. Balak ko rin sanang palitan pansamantala ang pangalan ng kolum kong ito- mula The Pacific Breeze ay gagawin kong Ang Simoy Pasipiko. Ito’y bilang pagbibigay-pugay sa ating sariling wika habang ginugunita ngayong Agosto 2010 ang kaarawan ni Pangulong Manuel L. Quezon at ang Buwan ng Wikang Filipino. Subalit kung nais niyong basahin ang isinulat kong ito sa wikang Ingles, subukan niyo ang Google Translate, tulad ng ginawa ng isang magmamanok dito sa The Chook-minder’s Quill.

Sa ika-26 na araw ng buwang ito, ay magdiriwang ng kanyang kaarawan ang nasabing magmamanok. Sa araw na ‘yon ay mag-susuot siya ng damit na kulay na pula- pampaswerte...

Samantala, kung si Jimbo ng Perth, Western Australia ay nagbibigay babala (na sinisimbolo rin ng kulay pula) tungkol sa mga paglilinlang at pandaraya sa mundo sa kanyang Blogbastic, ang kanyang blog naman sa Multiply site ay tuluyan na yata niyang iniwan; ngunit ang kanyang huling post siyam na buwan na ang nakaraan na tungkol sa Climate Change ay natataon naman sa tema ng ating Buwan ng Wika ngayong taon: Sa Pangangalaga ng Wika at Kalikasan, Wagas na Pagmamahal Talagang Kailangan.

Hanggang sa muli.

► Read RJ's previous articles here.

For married OFWs

For married couples, communication is the key.

I don’t see any possible solution for an Overseas Filipino Worker and for his/her family back home to maintain a strong relationship of love and trust than to communicate in any possible means, constantly reassuring each other of the promises they made before the eyes of man, and the eyes of God, and that they will be together till death, and beyond.

Every OFW, regardless of background, class or status, needs three things in order to survive: a friend and/or community to belong to, a job/work where they can immerse themselves, and a nourishing love from the family at home.

A family back home can make a life of an OFW easier by subscribing to any networks' unlimited text and sending a lot of SMS to their loved one's roaming number. Kahit minsan, the text messages are wala dito, wala doon (haha, is this a plug-in for a telecommunication network?), by spending time chatting with him through any other means, by sending email pictures of links and by a constant assurance of faith, of love, and unwavering trust. [I'm confused with this sentence. What does it mean to say?]

Based on my experiences and the people I know, OFWs and their families back home who spend time communicating through mobile phones, through internet, and even the outdated snail mail, have stronger, healthier and happier relationships. I know there are some surveys to support this claim, and I’ll try to post an entry about that later.

This theme is not an easy one for all of us at the Pinoy EBA. The “Strengthening the OFW Families: Stronger Homes for a Stronger Nation” is a bold and truthful admission of an OFW problem that has been for decades. Every OFW knew it. But we were mum because we are simply letting them live their lives, or don’t care at all, because it’s their choices anyway. Believe me, that was what I was thinking for the past few years. But I began to feel bad when a series of events happened. These are events that I will share today.

First, when a ‘Kabayan’ approach me and my wife (I petitioned my wife, Mrs. Thoughtskoto, a couple of months after we were married so she can join me here in Saudi) somewhere in Al Khobar, Saudi Arabia and asked us “Saan kayo nakabili ng papel?” I have no idea what he was talking about. Really. I found out later from someone who was engaged in an illicit relationship that you can buy a document with fake (or legal?) DFA red ribbon and seal and a fake marriage certificate with you and a partner’s name on it. I hope that the embassies and consulates will look into this matter and should find ways and means to prevent documents like these to be faked. I don’t know. What can you suggest?

The second incident was when my family and I came home last December 2009. I met Ate Gia, a mother of three teenagers in her late 40s and currently working at the NAIA OFW Lounge. It broke my heart listening to her story. Her husband works in the US. He found an attractive Filipina lady there who also works as an OFW. A first, Ate Gia thoguht that her husband was probably busy at work because there was no call or SMS from him for a week. A month passed and the sustaining support for the kids on college were cut into half, and a year later, there were no calls, SMS, internet chatting, and even remittance. She was forced to find work to support the kids. She just found out 3 years after, her husband is already living in with someone else. It was a devastating experience. It broke my heart hearing it. Today, every time she sees at the NAIA airport the thousands of OFW who come and go, she wondered how many families have had the same experience like hers. I know the answer. I won’t tell her. She will break into tears again.

The third incident was when I was home last May for an interview. I came to know that our neighbor was also an OFW for more than 5 years. Mang Pedring and Aling Zenaida have two boys and a girl. Mang Pedring was a carpenter, and Aling Zenaida ventured as a domestic helper in Singapore to alleviate them from poverty. The first two years were wonderful. But Mang Pedring who was left to take care of the kids began drinking, gambling and womanizing. Aling Zenaida was so frustrated, that she too was engaged in an illicit relationship with a fellow OFW. Last May, I spoke to the two boys who are now 15 and 13 years of age. Their mother sent money for them, but their dad will hurt them if they won’t give him some money too. The kids are smokers and drinking alcohol too. I do not know how to make things right for them.

The stories above make way for the PEBA theme now. Unless we stop and do something about the disintegration of families, we are heading towards a gloomy future. If the basic unit of a society is broken, if every homes, and every young people are not being taken cared of, we are not going anywhere.

I don’t see any possible solution for an Overseas Filipino Worker and for his/her family back home to maintain a strong relationship of love and trust than to communicate in any possible means, constantly reassuring each other of the promises they made before the eyes of man, and the eyes of God, and that they will be together till death, and beyond.



My wife and I were taught when we were young of the “chastity before marriage and fidelity after marriage.” Our vows are not just to last till death, but for all time and all eternity. Knowing that, even if we are physically separated for now, we are doing every possible means to be together, even in prayer, in the voices of our heart, and the thoughts in our minds.

For true love is never waning and never failing, even a thousand miles apart.

► Read Kenjie's previous articles here.

OFWs’ Journey with God

Faith plays a significant role in the everyday life of a believer. And with my religious conviction, I cannot avoid to equate God's word in the lives of each OFW families.

As we celebrate PEBA 2010 with its theme, "Strengthening OFW Families: Stronger Homes for a Stronger Nation", let’s be reminded of the enormous challenges and social costs of migration in the OFW families. Families who survive the storm are the ones anchored to the Rock of Ages for Christ is in the center of their familial relationship.

And to Christian families who plan to follow the path of our nations' Modern Heroes, here's my advice:

1. Migration should be considered as the last option for the family as an economic solution and make sure it is God's will.

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." (Romans 12:1)

2. Couples should make a joint decision considering the enormous emotional cost brought by the separation of their family.

"The wife’s body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband’s body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife. Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control." (1 Corinthians 7:1)

3. Make sure you are entering your host country with legal travel documents, proper working papers, and valid credentials.

"A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold." (Proverbs 22:1)

4. Work hard, be frugal and budget your money wisely.

"For even when we were with you, this we commanded you, that if any would not work, neither should he eat." (2 Thessalonians 3:10)

5. OFW families in the Philippines who receive the hard earned monthly remittances must learn to save and invest wisely for their future.

"She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard." (Proverbs 31:16)

6. Communication is the major key in shortening the distance between the OFWs and the family left behind and a tool in strengthening the family relationship.

"Like cold water to a weary soul is good news from a distant land." (Proverbs 25:25)

7. Join OFW social organizations, association and Christian groups for social, professional and religious affiliation.

"And because he was of the same craft, he abode with them, and wrought; for by their occupation they were tentmakers." (Acts 18:3)

8. Find the nearest church in your host country and you'll be surprised to discover that OFWs fill the pews of the churches abroad.

"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching.” (Hebrews 10:24)

In my two decades as an OFW, it impresses me to see global Filipinos in the midst of their arduous journey. They never fail to believe and trust God even in the most godless of situations. With God they find strength, hope and peace. Because our life is supposed to be a migratory journey on God's road.

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path (Psalm 119:105)"

► Read The Pope's previous articles here.

Ang Aking Silid

RINGGGG RINGG KIRRRINGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Isang malakas na ingay na umaalingawngaw sa aking silid sabay hampas sa alarm clock na nakapatong sa maliit na lamesa ng aking kama. Pilit kong ginigising ang sarili mula sa isang mahimbing na pagkakatulog.

"Teka anong oras na ba?," bulong ko, sabay tingin sa relo na katabi ng aking kamang hinihigaan.

"Alas sais trenta na pala ng umaga!" gulat kong sabi sa aking sarili.

Dagli akong bumangon at pinatay ang aircon. Binuksan naman ang ilaw na nagbigay liwanag sa napakadilim at walang buhay kong silid. Inayos ang aking higaan at kaagad kong kinuha ang aking tuwalya.

Pagkatapos, lumabas ako sa aking kwarto at agad kong tiningnan ang rice cooker sa kusina.

" Ahh, buti naman at maganda ang pagkakaluto," sabi ko sa aking sarili.

Agad kong binuksan ang apoy sa kalan habang nakasalang ang isang kasirola ng adobo na kagabi pa nakasalang para muli itong mainitan mula sa isang napakalamig na gabing nagdaan. Agad kong kinuha ang pinggan, sabay sandok sa mainit na kanin at pagdakay kinuha ang adobo sa aming kalan.

Matapos makuha ang tamang pagkain ko sa umaga, binuksan ko ang aming telebisyon. Isang pang-umagang programa mula sa atin sa Pilipinas, kasabay na yata ng bawat subo ng pagkain ay ang ingay na nanggagaling sa aming telebisyon. Tila itoy kasama na sa aming pagkain araw-araw. Habang isinusubo ko ang huling kanin, bigla akong natigilan sa nakitang balita sa telebisyon : Isang OFW binitay sa Saudi.

Tinigil ko sumandali ang pagkain at matiyagang pinakinggan ang balita sa telebisyon. Pinilit kong alamin kung ano ang naging dahilan kung bakit bibitayin ang isang Pinoy dito sa lupang aking pinagtatrabahuhan.

Kalaunay, napag-alaman ko na bibitayin sya sapagkat nakapatay sya ng isang Pakistani na nagtangkang halayin sya taxi. At sa patuloy na pagbabalita napag-alaman ko din na hindi tinanggap ng pamilya ng biktima ang blood money (pera katumbas ng paglaya ng bilanggo) na inaalok para maisalba ang kanyang buhay. Wala ng nagawa ang pamilya ng OFW kundi tanggapin ang kanyang mapait na kapalaran.

Makalipas kong marinig ang balita sabay kong nilunok ang huling kanin sa aking pinggan. Kasabay ng paglunok ng aking kanin ay paglunok na rin sa maaring aking magiging kapalaran dito sa dayuhang bansang aking kinabibilangan, sa ngayon. Kasabay ng aking paglunok ay paglunok sa mga batas na tinakda ng gobyerno ng Saudi. Batas na may katumbas na mabigat na kaparusahan sa sinumang lalabag nito. Paglunok sa batas na hindi ko naman nakamulatan. Ang paglunok ko sa katotohanan at pagtanggap sa maaring maging buhay ko dito sa Saudi.

Pagkatapos kong hugasan ang aking pinagkainan agad kong inayos ang aking babaunin, inalagay ang pagkain sa bawat lalagyan sa aking baunan. At muli habang ginagawa ko ito pumasok sa aking isapan na noong ako pa ay nasa Pilipinas, naalala ko ang nanay na sya ang nag-aasikaso ng lahat. Sya ang nagluluto ng aming pagkain at naghahanda ng aming babaunin sa trabaho. Palagi syang nakaalalay sa amin kahit kami'y malalaki at nagtatrabaho na.

Noon, hindi na ako nag-aalala na may babaunin at kakainin ako kinabukasan sapagkat nandyan si nanay. Ngayun wala na akong aasahan kundi ang aking sarili. Lahat ng bagay ay kailangan kong kayaning mag-isa . Mag-isa mabuhay sa bansang iba ang kultura at paniniwala. Mag-isang suungin ang lahat ng hamon buhay. Walang magulang na aalalay sa iyo, walang pamilya susuporta sa iyo. Walang kang aasahan kundi ang... sarili mo.

Ngunit sa kabilang banda nagpapasalamat ako sa aking pamilya dahil binabaunan nila ako ng mga pinakaimportanteng bagay na mayroon ako ngayon. Ito ang tatag ng loob, pagsisikap at edukasyon. Ito ang aking mabisang sandata para malabanang mag-isa ang lahat ng problema at paghihirap na maari kong kaharapin.

Pagkatapos kong ihanda ang babaunin ko sa araw na yun, pumasok ako sa banyo naligo at muli pumasok na sa aking kwarto para nagbihis. Kasabay ng aking pagbibihis ay ang bagong simula ng araw, simula ng panibagong buhay, simula ng bagong pag-asa at simula ng isang araw na pagtatrabaho sa dayuhang lupang aking kinaroroonan.

“Sabah hakier,” pagbati ko aking kasamahang Arabo pagdating ko sa opisina.

Agad ko ring binuksan ang ilaw at pati na rin ang aircong panlaban sa sobrang init na nasa labas. Panandaliang paglimot na ako pala ay nasa bansang may nakakapasong init at matindi ang sikat ng araw. Paglimot muna sa mga pangungulila at problema sa buhay. Kailangan kong maging propesyonal at gumawa ayon sa mga responsibilidad ko bilang empleyado ng kanilang kumpanya. Ito’y simula na ng isang araw na pagtatrabaho at pagbabanat ng buto sa lupa na nagbibigay sa akin na isang napakalaking oportunidad at pag-asa.

Makalipas ang isang buong araw ng trabaho, pagod ngunit kahit papaano’y naging makabuluhan ang buong araw, sa wakas makapagpapahinga na muli ako sa aking silid. Hindi ko alam kung ako ba ay matutuwa o malulungkot dahil ako’y babalik na muli sa aking madilim, tahimik at walang buhay kong silid . Isang pagbabalik sa isang malungkot na buhay dala ng pagkakalayo at pangungulila sa aking mga mahal sa buhay. Sa pagbubukas ko ng aking ilaw, alam kong magbibigay liwanag ito sa madilim kong silid katulad ng liwanag na naibibigay ko sa aking pamilya. Isang manigas na liwanag din na binibigay sa akin ng aking pamilya upang patuloy na lumaban sa buhay at magpunyagi para sa ikagiginhawa namin.

Bukas, alam ko ganun muli ang aking buhay, tutunog ang aking alarm clock at gagawin ang araw-araw na gawaing nakasanayan. Nakakapagod minsan, at nakakasawa din. Mahirap mag-isa. Mahirap mangulilala. Mahirap tumawa mag-isa sa kwarto. Mahirap pigilan ang luha dahil sa labis na kalungkutan. Pero wala akong magagawa, kailangan ako ng aking pamilya. At kailangan kong makasanayan ang lahat ng ito.

Kasabay ng pagmulat ng aking mata sa umagang darating ay pag-asa na sana sa muling pagbabalik ko mula sa buong araw na pagtatatrabaho ay madadatnan ko na ang aking silid na maliwanag, puno ng buhay at masaya. Umaasa na sana isang hapon, sasalubungin ako ng yakap, halik at halakhak ng mga mahal ko sa buhay. Umaasa na sana hindi na namin kailangan magkahiwa-hiwalay pa. Umaasang magkakasama sama din kami. At umaasa na ang paghihirap ko dito ay maging makabuluhan at magdulot sa amin ng kahit konting kagihawahan sa buhay.

Sana dumating na iyon, sana sa isang buwan, sa isang linggo, sa makalawa, sana bukas na. Sana... ngayon na! Marahil, siguro kung dumating ang araw na hindi ko na kailangan pang iwan silang muli. At ang tangi kong maipapangako sa aking sarili na kahit KAILANMAN hindi na ako muling babalik sa tahimik, malungkot, madilim at walang buhay kong... SILID.

Lingering

There are so many possible topics for this month's column.

I'd love to write about the PEBA but this issue is the PEBA primer so I'm sure the articles above are more than adequate to initiate you into what's PEBA and why you should join. (You should! No doubts about it!)

I'd love to talk about my family for this month's theme but I'm sure my parents and siblings will panic at the sight of their name or photo in here. They're shy like that. (They freaked out when they saw their photos in the Pink Tarha!). And what can I really say about my family aside from them being made of pure awesomeness?

I'd love to talk about the pambansang wika. Just because August is the Buwan ng Wika. But I cannot think of anything that will interest you, aside from assuring you that I am still using the Filipino language in my day-to-day conversations, despite being in a foreign land. I haven't learned a single sentence of Arabic for the love of my mother tongue (or maybe because it's difficult?)

And then there's my birthday. Okay, okay, so I know you're not really interested in my birthday or anything that has got to do with my age. You don't care about yours anyway, right? Well, I do. I care about turning darn 26 this month, this year.

I am past the quarter-life crisis mark at 25. So at 26, I am here... at the quarter life crisis. Last week, I lay on my bed after I woke up thinking of what I will do with my life (wow, profound!). I rarely reflect, mind you, so this is a rare moment. I am currently at a point in my life where I consider myself to be in the middle of a crossroad. I'm sure it is a crossroad but I cannot see the roads. Not yet. It's as if I am not going anywhere. I spent the time thinking of the different aspects of my life and saw that I am lingering. This is a place where I do not want to move just yet. I just want to linger. And float. And stay in between.

I am not sure where my train of thought is taking me, or you. I just thought that every once in a while, we reach a point in our lives when we just want to be still, take a moment to reflect, and move on another day. I would like this August, or the days leading to my 26th birthday, to be that point in my life.

Thank you, Lord, for the chance to reflect, to pray, to live, to wake up to a glorious sun.

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